Thursday, August 13, 2009

Amir Sulaiman - She Said I Prefer A Broken Neck

Ok, so this post does not feature a video by a Muslim Scholar, but it features a video by a Muslim Poet.

Amir Sulaiman's poem is amazing. I've lost the number of times I've listened to his performance. It brought tears to my eyes the first time I heard it. To me, the poem speaks on an issue Muslim women, as well as women in general face: dealing with a broken heart.

I once heared a Scholar say that women, as a creation, where given a small portion of the rahma that Allah Subhano wa Talla has on mankind. Rahma is kind of hard to translate to English completely. As a word, it basically means mercy. But it doesn't only entail that. Rahma is when a mother runs to her child, her heart in her throat, after she hears him give out a scream of pain. Rahma is when a sister spends all her money buying her little siblings a present instead of spending the money on herself. Rahma is when a daughter tells her mother to sit down and rest, and that she will do the chores instead, even though she is more tired. Rahma is when a daughter kisses her father's forehead after an argument, and asks his forgiveness, even if the father was in the wrong. Rahma is when a wife asks about the wellbeing of her husband behind his back just to make sure that he is ok, even though they are currently having a fight and are separated.

It isn't just mercy, it's a compassionate feeling that is a part of every women. However, as per what the Scholar said, the experiences a woman goes through in life could erode this rahma, making it disappear slowly day by day till there is nothing left. Emotional pain, not physical pain. He warned men of being a hand in the erosion of a woman's rahma, playing with their emotions. Can you imagine a mother with no compassion for her children, no heart warming smile for them? That scares me lol

So when the girl in the poem says that she prefers a broken neck to another broken heart, I get what she means. Love is more important to her than having a lover. But then, he tells her that it's true that the experiences she might go through is bloody and rough, even the beautiful experience of giving birth leaves a scar on a woman. In life, we go through the rough times but there is always, and I mean ALWAYS light at the end of the tunnel. We may not see it now, we may instead experience pain and gain scars, but one day it won't matter because we will gain absolute happiness and peace, whether it is in this life or the hereafter, by Allah's will.

"…It may be that you hate something when it is good for you and it may be that you love something when it is bad for you. Allah knows and you do not know." (Surat al-Baqara: 216)

However, the part that brought tears to my eyes is when he spoke of his mother. What she did for them, how she cared, and that what he remembered of his childhood was not poverty, but her rahma. It is because of this, he was brought up in a way understanding why a woman would prefer a broken neck to a broken heart.

"But when I think about my childhood, I don't think about poverty
I remember how she hugged me, kissed me, taught me, loved me.
And I know you prefer a broken neck to another broken heart
Broken parts that litter the night sky like stars.
But remember, even the beauty of birth leaves its own scars
And know that you will find your home, right where you are
We will find our homes right where we are."

The energy and compassion that is poured out to someone that is loved by a woman is unlike any force on this earth, and when that someone hurts them ... well i guess you understand. And this is a tiny part of Allah's rahma created within a woman. The Scholar said that if you want to understand the rahma of Allah, watch a mother with her child.

Hope what I am trying to say makes sense lol. Ahh ... I adore this poem xD


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